Jellybeans

Jellybeans, the best sweet treat ever invented. Why are they so irresistible? Through much research, I have discovered that there are indeed at least three reasons why jellybeans are the most delicious of all candy. The first thing is their color. Bright pinks, dark reds, vivid greens, and vibrant yellows make each bag of jellybeans different and make eating them more exciting than eating any other candy. The second thing is their smell. They smell soooooo good. If they had jellybean perfume I would buy it and wear it all the time. The third thing is the taste. Many different companies make many different flavors, almost all of them good. My personal favorite would have to be sweettart jellybeans. They are Super-de-duper!!!!! (I think I might be addicted to them). Anyway, no matter what brand you like, jellybeans will always be there making the world a better place.

Questions that haunt me

I’d like to start with a question. Do you know anyone who enjoys shooting themselves in their foot or stabbing themselves in the stomach? Or do you know anyone who puts themselves in situations where they know they will get hurt? In other words do you know anyone who is crazy?

Okay. Now answer this question. Do you know anyone who likes to go see tragic, heart wrenching, and otherwise depressing movies? I bet you do. Now tell me what the difference is. I do not see a difference. Why do we spend time watching something we know will bring us pain? Why do we subject our selves to this torture of sorts? These are the questions that haunt me. In order to stop the haunting, I will attempt to answer them.

One reason could be that we just enjoy pain. We enjoy the heartache that comes from watching people have heartache themselves. Another reason could be that we like to watch people go through hard situations to make us feel like our lives are better. Sad movies help us see our many blessings and how bad our lives could be compared to how they are. Sad movies help us feel superior. Reason three could be that we feel like we have to watch the sad movies so we can feel properly bad for people in that situation and not worry about it any more.

All those reasons, I admit, are slightly sarcastic so here is my attempt to really analyze and synthesize. We, as a society, might watch these movies as a reminder that we can survive. Seeing people live through much more challenging situations than we are faced with puts things into perspective and makes our challenges seem less imposing. Another serious reason is the fact that most sad movies move us so that we want to become better people. My dad’s personal opinion is that the main theme in sad movies, like Fiddler on the Roof and Camelot, is hope. Hope for a better day and hope for the basic goodness of man kind.

Although I don’t necessarily enjoy tragic movies, I do see the point in them now. Life can be painful but there is always hope.

Having a bed time is over rated

Each night at about 9:30 I say to myself "Self, you MUST be in bed by 10:30 AT THE LATEST tonight." I say back "Of course I will be. What, do you think I'm stupid or something?" So I do a little this and that, and then look at the clock and what do you know ITS 10:30! I rush down stairs to my room in a panic and get ready for bed. When I am finally ready, I look at the clock and its 11:40. I fall asleep dreading the morning. In the morning is when I curse all of existence for my stupidity in staying up late! One thought is running through my head; "Never Again, NEVER AGAIN!" Why do I do this to myself? That is my question and I'm determined to find an answer.


I've been analyzing it for a while and here is what I've come up with. One reason I procrastinate bed time is because of the effort I have to put into it. At night I am tired and when I'm lazy. Being lazy is not good if you need to put effort into something. A solution to this is to get ready for bed when I'm not tired which is at like 3:00. I don't think that's going to work. Another solution is to just do it anyway. Though this solution will work, it would be hard. I guess this will be a work in progress.

Another reason is that I like to read too much. Often at 9:30 I'll read a book. This is bad because when I start to read a good book, I'm not satisfied until I am finished. It is really hard for me to put my book down and even harder to get to sleep with the story racing around in my head. I think there are three solutions to this. Solution #1 is to stop reading books. I really don't think this solution will work for me because without my books, I'll shrivel up and die. At least my insides will. Solution # 2 is to read shorter books. This one might work, but a lot of the books I like are really long. Solution # 3 is to set a time limit. This one will work, but will take a lot of self control on my part. Maybe I'll work on this problem some more.

The final reason I procrastinate bed time is the fact that I procrastinate homework. I wait till the night before it is due to finish it most of the time. Homework and I don't get along too well. There one or two things I can do to fix this. One is to not do my homework and flunk out of school. The other is to exercise my self control and do it earlier. I think that the self control route would be in my best interest.

So I guess the solution is obvious. I just need some more self control. I can do it. (Starting right after I finish this essay at 10:30 the night before it is due. )