Addiction

Lost in a world apart. Just making it from fix to fix. The pain and cost of it all should deter me, but it doesn't. There was a time when it was once in a blue moon thing. Used only when truly needed. Time passed and the intervals grew shorter and shorter. Now I can hardly last a day without a fix. It takes truly high quality stuff to completely satisfy and even then I'm always on the lookout.
Don't worry friends. My all encompassing habit is not drugs or alcohol. It is reading. More specifically, visiting Barnes and Noble, buying a book, then reading it in one sitting. I have NO social life. My grades are suffering. Is there a book lovers' anonymous?
I guess it is part of my procrastination problem, and this habit is most definitely burning a whole in my already empty pocketbook. Hey, on the bright side, if you need a good book to read....

Grins

The Jackolantern floats,
grinning on the water.
People pass by,
smile
and say "how are you?"
The Jackolantern nods,
grinning on the waves,
while a girl lies
beneath the surface
drowning,
pretending nothing is
wrong, and hoping.
Hoping that no one notices.

Senioritis

What is a senior to do when it isn't even halfway through first term and she/he is already ready to move on? I am so incredibly ready to move on, and yet... My goodness. I'm so fickle. *sigh*

Circle

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SNAP

Snap- the pencil breaks
Snap- I don't know
Snap- why it helps but it does
Snap- my control is
Snap- my life is
Snap- again it happens
Snap- they blame me
Snap- who are they
Snap- to blame
Snap- judgement
Snap- judgemental
Snap- judgemental people talk
Snap- about things they don't understand
Snap- exclusion
Snap- exclude
Snap- exclude me from
Snap- the fray please
Snap- its not me
Snap- to be that way
Snap- the pencil breaks

Goodbye blogs!

The word blog brings many different emotions. Annoyance, anger, joy, and apathy. This year blogs have been my constant companion. Because of this, my feelings towards them are mixed. My last blog question is, what do blogs mean to me?
Blogs are a way to express my feelings. Whether it is obvious or not so obvious, most of the blogs I have written are about how I feel in my every day life. When I am mad, my blogs reflect it. Happy, sad, and any other emotion really.
Blogs are a way to get a good grade. Do them right and you're good to go.
Blogs are troublesome. They are harder to remember than the years of Millard Fillmore's presidency. Okay maybe not that bad, but still.
What ever blogs mean to me, they are over. And I for one can say, good riddance... until I need to vent again.

The cool seat

The back seat of the bus has thrilled many students of many ages. Why? It is bouncy, and..... and well.... I don't know. I guess it just represents "coolness." In elementary school the back seat of the bus was for the "cool kids" who were usually the class clowns and athletic-ish people. In junior high the "cool kids" at the back were the rising jocks, cheerleaders, and some jazz band kids. Sitting at the back was prohibited unless you fit one of these categories. Today, L. and I broke this norm. Though we are not "cool" we sat in the back of the bus. The traditional backseaters walked toward the back, took one look at us, and sat at the front instead. L. and I had a nice bouncy ride and enjoyed the sensation of being cool without all of the side effects.

Putting an end to twitterpation... hopefully.

For those of you who know me well...ish, you know that I am very independent and DO NOT like being told what to do. I like making decisions for myself on everything. Unless I'm feeling apathetic, which is beside the point. The point is, I am very miffed when I have a crush on someone that I did not agree to have a crush on. It seems, though, that cupid doesn't care about my sanity and has sent many an unwanted and unrequited crush my way. I have decided to come up with the top five things that make me like a boy. This way I will be prepared to fall out of crush with every crush that comes my way in record time. So... here we go.

(This list uses the Melissa-Laura hotness scale. The rankings number from 1 to 10 and sometimes 11 if the person in question happens to look like George Clooney.)

1) Dress and appearance- A guy needs nice, COMBED hair and unstained clothes that actually fit him. Identical twins can differ by as much as 3 points on the hotness scale just by their clothes and hair.

2) Musical talent- Oh my heck-trabeck when a guy can sing or play an instrument well, he jumps at least 4 points on the hotness scale.

3) The nice factor- A guy who is nice is better than anything else really. Being nice can get a guy promoted 2 points on the scale.

4) Umm... Smell- This one is embarrassing to admit. The yummy boy smell is probably the best one out there. Yep, +2 on hotness. Not too much though. Too much smell on a boy will loose him about 4 points.

5) Looks- As you can tell, looks are by no means the most important factor in hotness, though it doesn't hurt.

So now that I know why I like guys, I will be able prevent the usual twitterpation. No more blind crushes for me. I will know exactly what makes me like a particular boy, which makes it easier to not become infatuated. Well, this has been a very productive blog. Thank you for your time.

Seven is heaven

Last week I tried out for Chamber and ever since then, every time I allow myself to think, I can't breath. I am SOOOOOOO nervous. On Monday I was dreading the break because it meant plently of free time to think and I really value breathing. Even worse, my family was headed to Midway for the vacation. I don't know about you, but when I die, I want it to be at my house, in my bed, when I am asleep. Not at a random condo in midway by asphyxiation. Tuesday rolled around and I discovered, or rather rediscovered the value of a good book when you need to get your thoughts off of something. Before my family left, I took a quick trip up to the library and stocked up on books. On the way up I read I Shouldn't Even be Doing This by Bob Newhart. We arrived, unpacked the car, and as soon as everything was settled, I settled down with The Raging Quiet by Sherryl Jordan. I finished that on Wednesday while the rest of my family was shopping for clothes at the Park City Outlet stores. As soon as I was done, I ran over to the Borders outlet and bought five books for the price of four, spending just under half of my Easter bunny money. My proud perchases were Pretties by Scott Westerfield, Specials by Scott Westerfield, Flyte by Angie Sage, Fairest by Gail Carson Levine, and A Great and Terrible Beauty by Libba Bray. I got back in the car and began reading Fairest. Finished that and began reading Specials. I finished Specials on Thursday and started on A Great and Terrible Beauty. I was done by 7:00 pm and I began reading Flyte, but I couldn't concentrate on it because A Great and Terrible Beauty ended really badly and I didn't have the sequel... yet. On Friday before we left for home, we went back to the outlet malls to return some stuff. I returned to Borders and bought Rebel Angels by Libba Bray, the sequel to A Great and Terrible Beauty. I spent the rest of Friday reading that, even when at the zoo. What can I say? It is a really good book. I finished it LATE at night, which was a little spooky. Anyway, on Saterday I woke up, did my jobs, and read The Light of the Oracle by Victoria Hanley. From all of this I have concluded three things. 1- I LOVE READING!!!! (maybe a little too much) 2- Books really help keep you from dwelling on things that you don't want to dwell on. 3- I need to get a life.
So for those who didn't count all the books I read and want to know the grand total, 7.